Raven Skye Harrison

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Like my subject line says it's a long and winding road. In my last entry I said that I was in pain due to what my mother did to me. And I don't want to hide anymore. So those who are from my world I will say that my mother is a cruel and hateful woman who wants nothing more than to destroy me and everything that I care about. When I travled for a few months after taking a break from here I found myself in India and my mother somehow found me and she used every Unforgivable Curse to hurt me, but I was not made to be broken because I fought back. It wound up hurting me in the end, but I survived it, despite being in intense pain from all the curses. After that ordeal I ended up having even more trust issues than ever before. But that is okay because I found myself here at KSU again and I re-applied and luckily there was enough time for me to get back in and for that I am thankful. I may be in pain and I may be having horrible nightmares about the past, but as long as I am around music I will be okay.
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Classes have kept me really busy but I welcome the business with open arms. It's better than getting lost in the caverns of my mind and overthinking things as always. I am currently taking 5 classes, some of them last well into the night because they are three hour classes and most of them involve music and that is good because singing is what I love and I can't imagine doing anything else. Of course there are the general classes that I don't really care for but that is okay. I am still making up the classes I had last year so I can be caught up to speed. I am really smart so I know that I will be able to catch up in no time. Along side with school,there is work too. When I am not in school I am at work at Strings 'n' Things and I am teaching several people piano lessons and a few vocal lessons too. I am not a professional by any means but I am helping those who have trouble and I am making my own money so that is a good thing. I may be busier than ever but I love it. And I have money to buy things on my own.

Finals are almost here and I cant believe the first semester is almost over. Guess time does fly when you are having fun. I am glad to be back even though the only person I have talked to is Graham whom I have not thanked for taking care of me that night. Thanks, Graham, your kindness means more to me than anything in the world.

I guess that will do for me. Now to think what I am doing for Thanksgiving... What is everyon's Thanksgiving plans?

Yeah, I am back. Back at KSU, and back into the swing of things known as college. That I can say makes me happy because I have always loved school and learning. Hence why I can always be seen with a book in hand. Well, when I am not singing my heart out of course. Another year has started for school and I believe I have a lot to catch up on because I left in the middle of the school year last year. So my fall semester is completing the classes I missed and hopefully I will be able to get my grades to be considered a sophomore. We'll see how it goes.

Most of you who knew me when I was here are probably wondering where I have been. Well, I will tell you. I went traveling, since I was feeling confined here, so I wanted to see the world in a sense. Which I did. Spent a few months traveling France, Germany, Italy and India. I did take a few classes here and there, but mostly it was relaxing since i needed it more than I thought. I took hundreds of pictures and then laid low at my dad's house and spent some well deserved time with my sister, Isis.

I am hoping that classes will keep me occupied and that I will be able to learn something. I know I will, but you just may never know. Hope to meet more people this time around. Feel free to say hi if you see me. I am not that hard to spot. Tall Indian girl dressed in traditional Indian style. Welcome to the 2011-2012 year.

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I think this is a record. Didn't take my mother long to trace where I was in India and then lied to me saying she wanted to talk, when I knew she wanted to hurt me more than she did when I was a child. And I thought I was learning to accept I would be happy as long as I was away from her. But I was wrong, so very wrong. I managed to get out, but barely. Now it's just a look and see on how I fair because I barely survived her hurtful ways. Now I can only hope I will be able to survive my injuries. Emotional and physical. Only time will tell that one... Just wish I could be happy. But I doubt that will happen anytime soon...
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In 8 days it will be my birthday. I am not sure if anything will happen, but I am opting to stay here instead of going home for the holidays. Not expecting an extravagant birthday party or anything, but age is only a number so it will just be another day. When you haven't had a real birthday, you tend to see birthdays as another day, but part of me wishes for one, even though I know it will never happen. Only time will tell, I guess. Hope everyone has a happy holiday, and an even better new year. Here's hoping some great things will happen for my birthday and the up coming holidays...

Looks like I have not updated this thing in a while, so here is a short update of what I have been doing, if anything at all. I suppose I should say that I am alive and well. As well as I am going to be in the United States. It's no India, but I'd take here over there any day of the week. Anyway. Classes have been going well. I am passing at least. I am not surprised there since I love any aspect of learning. Could explain why my eyes feel like they are burning. I must spend way too much time reading my music books, but I think there is so much to learn, I guess I just want to read everything and not miss any particular point. Vocal and piano lessons are going good as well. I am finding that I am playing the piano better than I have in a long time. I practice 30 minutes everyday and an extra 20 when I am not in class. I sing everyday, so practicing there is not that hard either. I think this shows that I am enjoying college more than I thought. And here I thought I was not going to understand the Americanized culture. Slow steps with that, I am sure.

Another thing I am doing is that I auditioned for the spring musical. Since I love anything music related, I figured I might as well try and see if i could get a part. I have not heard anything yet, but we will see. I am not hoping for the lead role, but a role where I won't be on stage for five minutes and that will be it. But I am hopeful. If I get a smaller part, I am thinking that saying where it says that there are not small parts, only small actors. But wish me luck in getting a part I will enjoy.

Other than that, nothing much going on. I am around, even if you have not seen me write anything recently. Feel free to find me if you want to hang out. Because heaven help me, I could use some friends to hang out with. And help me forget the nightmares I have on a constant basis. I am sure that my roommates are annoyed as all hell with me crying throughout the night...

~Raven~

Well, I think I have made an accomplishment with the fact that I auditioned for the musical like everyone else is doing, which I don't mind considering I think it will be fun. I am not expecting to get a major part, but anything where I can sing to my heart's content is good enough for me. I love music and Grease is one of those musicals I think I will really enjoy. Granted I have not seen it as much as everyone else, but I have grasped the concept on what it is about. If I don't get a part, I can be happy with singing in the background, because I have a feeling there will be plenty of spots open for that. I auditioned with one of my favorite songs from Phantom of the Opera. (I am actually hoping that this musical is going to be performed soon. I'd audition faster than you can say Kansas.) I think I showed off my voice a bit since the song itself requires intense vocal range and it is a hard song to sing and I am suprised that I can nail it like I do. I am not bragging by any means, just gushing on the fact that singing is pretty much the only thing I know that comes natural to me. Now if only I can come out of my shell more then we will be squared for life. I am working on it, but Rome wasn't built in a day so it will be a long process before I am able to be confident enough to say anything and not care. Slowly but surely.

Other than that, nothing much is going on. Just classes and the majority of them are music classes and I am finding that I still have a lot of learning to do. I have two private vocal lessons and I love them both. Piano is just the same as well as my music history class. I am currently working on a report on how music from the 60's inspired most musicans today and I think that major point in that is the Beatles. I have not listened to much of their stuff, but now as I listen to some of it in class, I find that they have catchy beats as well as some of the other groups back then. The female singers were inspiring to me and I think my report will show that. I am up to 5 pages, so I think that is good. Work at Strings 'n' Things is an awesome place to work at, and I find that I love teaching piano to others who want to learn. But it's fun so I am not complaining much. As for Valentines Day I am not sure what I am going to do. I am still single, but I am in no rush to find someone. When it happens, it happens. For now though, I will send some valentines to my friends and family. Which reminds me to send gifts to my brothers and sister. Plus my nieces and nephews. I'll have to do that in the next few days or so. But for now I am headed to the cafe. I am the need for some espresso and maybe some Indian food. Come find me if you wish.

Raven~

( I think I need help. )

( Blackbird Singing in the dead of night )

Another birthday has come and gone, and to be completely honest I am glad that it is over. Everyone else I know love their birthdays, but does it make me a bad person for being one of the fair few who hates theirs? It's not as if I totally hate it, but when you have no one to celebrate with, what can you do? My brother and sister sent me birthday wishes and gifts, but in all honesty, it is not the same. Not if they are not here to celebrate. I am sorry for being so sour, but when you have lived the life I did, birthdays seem kind of pointless unless you have someone to celebrate with. And since my mother and I dont exactly see eye to eye, she is the last person I would want to celebrate my birthday with. Could also be the fact I am afraid of her and her death eater friends so the chances of me and her being in the same room are next to none. Plus I am afraid of her so that does not help either...

My holiday was pretty good too. For being a new girl around it was nice to be invited to spend Christmas with someone new. I am greatful to Jenny and her boyfriend for being so kind and letting me be with them for Christmas. And to my suprise I really enjoyed myself and the food was amazing. I hope that I will be able to do this next year. I may not be with family for the holidays, but I am glad I got to be with new friends.


New Years was spent by myself. I did not mind though since I am working on a new song and hopefully I will be able to perform it.. somewhere. Hopefully people will like it. if not, it will not be the end of the world. I am not going to do new years resolutions because I ner follow through with them. But if I did have one, it would be to overcome my fear and lack of trust in people. Logically, it will take me longer than a year, but I like college at least. Maybe I will be a singer. Only time will tell.

~Raven

Here is Raven's full bio for those who want to read it. There is a lot in her life that is explained in here, and I hope it sheds some light in who Raven really is. Like I said in my OOC post, Raven is my brainchild. Started her in a fan fic before bringing her to life in a rpg. And now, she is more or less my alias as it were. Be mindful, it is rather long, so if you do not want to read it, by all means pass this over. But I do hope that some of you read it at least!

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